It was only when I came to The PABL Project that I began to see myself as not just a grieving parent but as a postpartum woman. Because my baby was gone, I had forgotten what my body had been through in carrying him almost to term, giving birth, expressing milk for him. All the physical and hormonal shifts that had taken place seemed so irrelevant that I had forgotten them entirely. Dedicating time to focus on my physical self was the first step to finding a way forward.